I Have Come To A Place Where A Man’s Faith Is Tested Like No Other. I Always Thought I Was A Spiritual Man And A Man Of Great Faith. But Once Again The Lord Sees To Test Me Further Then Ever Before. All The Years Walking With The Lord I Have Become Secure With My Place In The Afterlife. A Place In Eternity Where I Shall Be With My God. I Really Never Understood How A Man Would Feel In His Last Days Because For One I It Was Never My Time Too. I Had To Come To The Realization That There Is Conclusiveness To This Life And For Me It May Come Soon. Ok Not That I’m Not A Man Of Faith And God Heals… Let’s Not Go There. A Place Where This Really Could Be The Final Chapter Of My Life And How Will I Handle These Days Ahead.
People Around Me Seem More Concerned Then My Self In This Area. I Have Come To The Conclusion If For Some Reason God Chooses Not To Heal Me And Take Me Well… AMEN. I Really Have Little Say And As A Solider In The Lord Army I Do As What’s Asked Of Me And Go Forward. . Could You Imagine The Ciaos In The Heat Of A Battle Where The Men Serving Under The General Refuse To Obey A Direct Order To Push Forward? Even Knowing They May Be Slain. I Can’t Even Conceive How Some Of The Martyrs Of Old Felt Or Paul In The Prison Singing Unto The Lord Feeling He Was Going To Die In There In This Pit. On Top Of It His Legs Broken And All The Pain That Went With It. What Faith Did This Great Man Have? How About Daniel In The Lions Den, Or Even David Taking On The Giant. The Bible Is Filled With These Heroic Souls. Not To Mention The Countless Others Never Put To Pen.
You As A Human We Know This That You Are Born And You Die. The Rest Is Your Personal Experience And Life’s Journey. I Can Say I Never Fear Death And How Secure I Am Where I Go After Till That One Last Day. It’s The Day That Changes You Form A Man Of Innocents To A Man With A Due Date. I Know No One Knows What Hour Or Day. Knowing The End Is Someday Is A Very Different Perspective Then Than A Man Who Has His Days Numbered. Just Hearing This Could Send You Deep Into A Depression Like No Other If You Don’t Have Christ. The Bravest Man Or Richest Ones Can’t Stop This Clock And No Matter How Bold You Are Till That Last Report: “Jim You Have This Amount Of Months” Innocents Prevails. And I Know Many Will Deny This Understanding But No One But A Man In This Position Can Speak As An Authority. You Can’t Say My Father Did And I Was There And I Can Speak Like I Have That Experience. Till That Faithful Day My Lord Are We Sheltered.
I Sat There A Minute After The Report And Thought Wow I’m So Young. I Have Just Started On This Journey Of Life. For The First Time Really Happy With My Self And My Family And Son Of Five. I Can Clearly Remember A Young Man With Cancer In His Last Days Years Ago. He Was 21 And I Would Say At His Last Hour. The Nurse During His Treatments Asked What He Wanted For His Twenty First Birthday Two Days A Way. He Answered Boldly “ I Want To Live To Be Twenty One”. He Said. He Could Live Without Never Driving A Car. Having A Long Relationship With Another Of The Opposite Sex And Raising A Family. He Only Wanted To Turn 21 To Show He Could And Feel What It Was Like To Be An Adult.
I Felt For Him But Couldn’t Ever Imagine What He Was Feeling. I Would Have Robbed Him Of His Self-Respect If I So Had Lessening His Desire. Now I Feel What He Feels Somewhat. I’m Glad I Was There To See Him That Day, Because He Never Made 21 He Died A Day Early. Who Knows Gods Mind But This I Know It Is Far Greater Then Mine…Jim
People Around Me Seem More Concerned Then My Self In This Area. I Have Come To The Conclusion If For Some Reason God Chooses Not To Heal Me And Take Me Well… AMEN. I Really Have Little Say And As A Solider In The Lord Army I Do As What’s Asked Of Me And Go Forward. . Could You Imagine The Ciaos In The Heat Of A Battle Where The Men Serving Under The General Refuse To Obey A Direct Order To Push Forward? Even Knowing They May Be Slain. I Can’t Even Conceive How Some Of The Martyrs Of Old Felt Or Paul In The Prison Singing Unto The Lord Feeling He Was Going To Die In There In This Pit. On Top Of It His Legs Broken And All The Pain That Went With It. What Faith Did This Great Man Have? How About Daniel In The Lions Den, Or Even David Taking On The Giant. The Bible Is Filled With These Heroic Souls. Not To Mention The Countless Others Never Put To Pen.
You As A Human We Know This That You Are Born And You Die. The Rest Is Your Personal Experience And Life’s Journey. I Can Say I Never Fear Death And How Secure I Am Where I Go After Till That One Last Day. It’s The Day That Changes You Form A Man Of Innocents To A Man With A Due Date. I Know No One Knows What Hour Or Day. Knowing The End Is Someday Is A Very Different Perspective Then Than A Man Who Has His Days Numbered. Just Hearing This Could Send You Deep Into A Depression Like No Other If You Don’t Have Christ. The Bravest Man Or Richest Ones Can’t Stop This Clock And No Matter How Bold You Are Till That Last Report: “Jim You Have This Amount Of Months” Innocents Prevails. And I Know Many Will Deny This Understanding But No One But A Man In This Position Can Speak As An Authority. You Can’t Say My Father Did And I Was There And I Can Speak Like I Have That Experience. Till That Faithful Day My Lord Are We Sheltered.
I Sat There A Minute After The Report And Thought Wow I’m So Young. I Have Just Started On This Journey Of Life. For The First Time Really Happy With My Self And My Family And Son Of Five. I Can Clearly Remember A Young Man With Cancer In His Last Days Years Ago. He Was 21 And I Would Say At His Last Hour. The Nurse During His Treatments Asked What He Wanted For His Twenty First Birthday Two Days A Way. He Answered Boldly “ I Want To Live To Be Twenty One”. He Said. He Could Live Without Never Driving A Car. Having A Long Relationship With Another Of The Opposite Sex And Raising A Family. He Only Wanted To Turn 21 To Show He Could And Feel What It Was Like To Be An Adult.
I Felt For Him But Couldn’t Ever Imagine What He Was Feeling. I Would Have Robbed Him Of His Self-Respect If I So Had Lessening His Desire. Now I Feel What He Feels Somewhat. I’m Glad I Was There To See Him That Day, Because He Never Made 21 He Died A Day Early. Who Knows Gods Mind But This I Know It Is Far Greater Then Mine…Jim
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